Late night musings one of twenty eighteen.

So, let me tell you a story. I’m pretty sure I’m still in love with a friend from ten years ago. Tragic huh? It’s actually borderline pathetic. Nope, it’s official. It’s pathetic, gut wrenching, kick to the neck, pathetic… 

I know, i know… I’ve said so ..many times. I’ve told myself to move on too many times that i think the word itself has lost its value and meaning… At least to me. So why i am writing this? I really dont know. Somewhere out there, someone is having this same situation as me maybe even worse and i just want to let her,him, them know that you are not alone. I’ve lived with this pain for more than a decade yet I’m still alive. I still aim to wake up tomorrow and breathe. And even though there’s a lull in that department of my life, there are still other things in my life that are worth living for. A lot of things have given me happiness. So, you out there…hang on ok… πŸ™‚ i know I’ll love this guy for the rest of my life. I may or may not find someone else to love more than him. I may be forever alone. But is  that so bad? For me, not really.. There may be   nights like these and i know, i know it sucks.. But i also know that…i just have to keep breathing.. Just because of the sole reason that i am worth it. I owe it to myself to keep living. To keep fighting. To keep loving. And so are you. Remember, YOU ARE WORTH IT!


A not so perfect scheme

Then again i broke my promise

I write, i cry, i reminisce

Must’ve felt good for you,eh?

Playing me day by day
Oh yes i knew but i kept my eyes closed

Like drugged, i was dosed

Oh dear, I kept my mouth shut

You were murmuring of things that were not
I knew, i knew, oh silly girl was i

I hoped and hoped on a lie

Of the things you said, which were true?

Because I really haven’t got a clue
But i stayed and kept still

I tried to lie and denied what I feel

I stood idly by from far away

Hoping this time, you look my way
Oh boy what a mess this has been

I tried to have played this little scheme

Seems like  i never had the ball

It just wasn’t perfect after all

P.S. if you read this, that means you’re still stalking me. Why do you even? 

On the brink

OH MY GOD! I think I cannot finish the 30 Day Challenge. I know I’m such a lousy blogger Β but WTHeck. I’ve been too busy that I can barely keep up. SO Am I? Or AM I NOT? I want to but I dont have to. You know these kind of dilemmas? Phew!

I dont want to quit or give up but … you know… LIFE!

I’m crossing my fingers here my friends. I really want to do this 30DC .

We’ll just see what happens πŸ™‚

Free Prayer Journal Printables

So.. I just got back from the island to the city from a two-day recollection. I feel spiritually refreshed and I’m very grateful to have both days to speak and listen to God πŸ™‚

One of our activities is the Prayer Journal which I did the layout. Everyone seemed to appreciate it so I’m also sharing it with you. I have been doing my own Prayer Journal for a quite now. What I did with mine is different from this though. I hope this helps you πŸ™‚

here are some screenshots :




I have a different lay-out for which I use on a daily basis. So, if you like to know my layout, just holler. lols! πŸ™‚ comment or message me . I’ll post something about it πŸ™‚

Anyhooooo… click the picture for the download.





Is that EVEN a question?

day 7 challenge – DO you read?

I mean. REALLY? DO I read? DO I READ? Eff yeah!

I’m soooooo into books. I think I even posted something related to this matter awhile back πŸ™‚ Current favorites (might as well be Β lifetime) are JULIA QUINN and JILL MANSELL. SERIOUSLY!! they are the BOMB!

check them out guys πŸ™‚